Train

 

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Red

 

Good morning.

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Tires.

 

I love this one. I took it yesterday.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

Pretty

 

Took this yesterday after work. I kinda dig it for some reason. I've been writing, but I'm keeping it to myself. At the moment, it's too raw for the net. Working on sending some stuff out too...need more time to focus on that, but it'll roll out how it should I suppose.

But I will share a little snippet:  "Today, this is what I look like. Some comment and don't like it I guess. Others tell me I’m pretty sometimes. I don’t feel anything at all when they say it, because I have no idea what good “pretty” is. “Pretty” has never saved a life. “Pretty” has never saved my life. I don’t give a fuck about pretty. Now, I want to bury myself with someone in the ugly. Because behind all of that is what’s real. Let’s be ugly together and tear each other and this world apart. Let’s rejoice in it."

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Photo of the Day.

 

Rad. :) <3
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Morning Thoughts

Sometimes I get tired of "growing." I've spent so much time looking at myself, going to therapy, going to 12-step meetings, doing the deal. Of course, life leads to new growth whether I like it or not, it seems...but there's a time to sit back and just be OK with who I am, to not worry, to fuck up and keep going on, to laugh and play.

Where's the course in that? :) There is no "course." It just is what it is, in the moment, and that's when I'm at my best, I believe.

Seems to me that many people, as we get older, need help with remembering to be children, rather than help pressing forward.

Thought for today:  "What brings me back to the moment? What brings me real joy? What brings me...and those around me...back to the essence of wonder?" I'm going to focus on these notions today, rather than "working on myself." When my perspective shifts in this way, I become the "lighter me," and ironically, in turn, someone greater.

Love,

C.A. MacConnell

Photo

 

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Black and White Day, Part 2

 
Stormy Day

Lost in Park

Heart of It

Snow Day

Under Pine

Ice

Gap

Fierce

Seven A.M.

Breakthroughs

Here are some other simple shots that give off an interesting feel. Kinda tells a story. I suppose I'm more drawn to the ones that give a subtle feel. Noticing I'm developing a certain niche/style. Fun. :)

Hope you like the series. Love,
C.A. MacConnell

Black and White Day

 
December Meadow

Bird House

April 1

Bend

Day with You

Air

Just some simple b/w shots I've taken. I just was enjoying the feel, looking at them. Hope you have a good day. I have a gazillion photos. It'd be fun to have a show and a party sometime. And dance. :) I frequently "dance" in my car...probably more than I should. Sometimes I sing and dance in grocery aisles too. Ha.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

Photo

 

Now I'm tending to like different kinds of shots...ones that in the past I would have labeled "messups," ha. Now, I think they're kinda cool. Who knows. Just saying hello. Hope your day went well. It's a scorcher here! <3

Here's another:

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Jungle Gym

 

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From the Groundhog

a poem from the P.O.V. of the groundhog

From the Groundhog

to tell you the truth today is so much fun yeah I am making my way
across the graveyard
funny bones everywhere all in the way under the grass here
when I dig my way up and have a surprise
a living two-legger comes and makes noises like birds 
she makes no sense like birds
I think you call her a girl
she goes by so fast-like and scary
and her face looks wet
so I am laughing and whistling at her because its not even raining
and she isnt swimming or anything
so why shes wet and moving around
I have no idea
doesnt look like shes digging anything
I mean it is hot
but everyone smart knows thats what fur is for
to soak it all up
don't know why she doesnt have fur or even feathers
it is so weird and hilarious 
im so glad im not a squirrel
and I am showing all four of my white teeth because she calls me
a little guy
and I for one know that Im one of the larger of the group
Im almost 13 pounds
Joking to tell you the truth I am 14 
which is kind of embarrassing
I should only be 12 pounds
I know
hahaha
but no one cares at all
they burrow all around and pay no attention anyhow
I am 4 years old so I might die whenever and I dont mind
but theres one thing I do get mad about
dont go calling me a woodchuck because thats not nice at all
thats why I cant stand the fish
hey I would stay to listen to the girl with the wet face
but I am busy climbing and I have to practice and to tell you the truth
I like to be by myself all the time
the trees understand me too
they tell me when the leaves move
yeah I like to be alone except for mating time
because its so ridiculous
we all crack up and roll around
and I guess we have to meet up other days
because we are building another tunnel
hey its annoying sometimes you gotta be with the others
whether you like it or not
to make a plan and hide because last year a coyote
took my uncle
and dont even get me started on that skinny wolf
he shouldnt even be around here
but I guess his family kicked him out
maybe I should tell the two-legger
that he needs someone like the fish
and she looks like she needs a friend with fur
because she cracks me up like she is
running around mostly naked except for some loose red and black skins 
hanging off her middle looks like it might all fall off in a storm
to tell you the truth
yeah two leggers would be much better off
if they had something to soak up the wet
yeah I have to whistle again
to tell her how big I am
she makes no sense at all like birds
wish me luck funny bones all over under the grass here

-- C.A. MacConnell

Photo: Columbus

 

Sometimes, when we are a shining light of vulnerability, when we are truly real, our authentic selves, people have no idea how to react. I've noticed they usually do one of three things:  they steer clear, or they shoot off a comment defending their (usually opposite and somewhat rote) position, or...they draw in close and want to know all about you.

I suppose I want to know and cherish those people who hover close. :) <3 That's my new troupe...I'll just be me and see how they roll in...or out...as the case may be. I am tired, and I am overwhelmed, and I'm in pain, and I've had a lot of tears, and my life direction is uncertain in various ways, but I'm also blown away by the newness/strangeness of everything at the moment...but every time I pray, I hear this:  wait. So, I am doing what I can and waiting on the universe to guide me some more...trying hard not to be afraid of the void. 

I'll just let the newness roll in as it should. Best I can describe it tonight.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

Sound.

 

C.A. MacConnell <3

Photo.

 

I have this as my desktop background right now. :) <3 The answer to my question yesterday:  the photo of the shark was actually an angled shot of a telephone pole turned sideways. :)

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Shark

 

:) I met a shark on my walk today...well, I thought so. Guess what this really is? Pretty cool.

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Photos.

 

Rings

Man in Tree

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Audience

 

Yesterday, I saw two bunnies right here. I talked to one and took his pic, and he even stayed still until I stopped talking. Day before, a heron flew up and over my car...so close, it was amazing. I couldn't believe it. Also saw a groundhog again. I think it was the same one I saw a few weeks ago...he's so cute! I love that guy...makes me chuckle every time I see him, the way he wobbles, and he always looks so happy, ha.

Have a good day,

C.A. MacConnell

Covers.

 

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Slide

 

Just have fun. ;)

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