One of my favorites. Have a good day. Love to you, C.A. From the POV of the turtle.
From the Turtle
I will find the light soon
we all will
I’ve been under the ice
for a while
which is boring
I was afraid I might die last year
the first time
under here
because would you believe
I wasn’t even hungry
and my skin was breathing
for me
last spring, I couldn’t understand
Mom disappeared for hours
with the old man
I guess it was fun
but they were both crying
then I had five sisters
four are pretty easy to swim with
they taught me to dive
the middle one is bad
too much, she snaps
she bit a fingertip right off once
I was so sorry for the person
but I didn’t know what to say
ten hours I crawled
I went to the woods
I met a lonely goose
I will find the light soon
I am two now
my family
has been here a long time
at least seven summers
I guess summer is the same thing as sex
I’m not sure
I’m not big on worms
but crickets are delicious
I will find the light soon
I hear the toads
they are so loud it hurts
the sides of my head
they’re yelling about Snake on the rocks
in the sun
maybe I will join him
not too close
can’t trust the quiet
always working, no play
poor guy
waiting around for legs to grow
I keep telling him
anyday now
Once I was crossing the sidewalk
it took me all day to get half way
all of a sudden
the human took a hold
of my shell
I was upside down
and dizzy
I thought I might lose something on the inside
I pulled my head in to play
hide-and-seek with her
I think she was afraid
her eyes were like flies
and would you believe
she set me down
back at the beginning
I will find the light soon
C.A. MacConnell
P.S. I just woke up and had a funny thought, and I wrote it on social media: it's going to be a hot one. Something is happening to me, and it's very uncomfortable, and I'm rather annoyed. I think God wants me to be happy. Ha. Love to you, C.A. It's true. I woke and wondered why I was so annoyed at all of the changes in my life over the past few years -- all of the ups and downs, all of the grief, all of the physical pain, all of the fear, all of the hardship. And I realized it's for good reason...I just can't clearly see the full picture yet, but I know in my heart that it's for love. Learning how to love in various ways. I'm learning how to "Stay." I'm learning how to compromise, be patient, and practice compassion. I'm learning how to rely on myself and sit with tough feelings too, building strength. I have expressed these changes, these miracles, to my spiritual adviser, and we've been talking about it, which is fun. I've been noticing new people coming into my life, which is like magic if you think about it, and I'm sure there's some magic man out there who is learning these things too and maybe, just maybe, I'll see this person out and about. At 49, I'm learning how to be a kid again. Because kids understand love and play. Some of us have to undo some shit and relearn it. XO :) Maybe this writing isn't genius, but it's important, because I'm important. Learning that too.
