Redirection. Turn it around.

Good evening. What is it you are holding on to that keeps you separate from folks? Distant? Unable to love and be loved?

I'm asking myself that question just now. Those are big questions, I realize this.

So, what keeps me separate? Today, what strikes me is this:  obsession and fear, for sure. When I get overly focused and wrapped up in fear, it makes me self-obsessed, and I give off a vibe that scares people, no doubt; however, I will say that obsession can be used for good as well...for instance, when writing!

So, when I channel it correctly, I can use it as a positive force. 

And so, the key is to recognize obsession and fear not as a "red flag" per say; but rather, to notice that when I am going there, it is simply my brain's way of saying this:  either use your gift or get around people.

Redirection, rather than shame. XO.

I've never met anyone who doesn't feel fear. I'm certain that I obsess more than many folks, for sure...but like I said, when channeled correctly, it is a gift. Five books. Ha.

Tricky, indeed. But here I am, writing to you, using this gift. And maybe, just by putting this out there, I can help you as well.

Today, I worked hard, and I made a good haul for a Monday. But what was the sweetest part of my day? When I held the hand of an elderly lady and helped her walk across the parking lot, one step at a time. She had just gotten out of the hospital, and as we walked, she said, "It's a bitch getting old." I smiled and nodded, and we continued on our way. Before that moment, I was rather caught up in feeling my physical pain. But while I held her hand, I forgot about it.

Redirection is key. Help someone, whether it be in a parking lot or typing to you.

This winter has been extreme for these parts. I have had many challenges, beyond the weather. And I'm sure you have as well. If you're afraid right now, maybe your body is telling you to use your gifts. Like me.

I've been forgetting something very important. We are divine. At any moment, I can turn it around. And so can you.

Slow it down. Redirection. Turn it around. I'm in.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell