Good morning. I Freaking Love You, by C.A. MacConnell.
The Opportunity
Yesterday, I wrote about how I was confronted with a situation from my past. Indeed, I ended up in a scenario that was a direct mirror of what had occurred in my life and earlier, the happenings had rolled out traumatically.
So, there I was. But...
After a few weeks of feeling the horrendous feelings, moving forward, and experiencing my past reactions, I was able to keep going, muddle through it all and then, I took different actions, and the result was this: it turned out in a way that was the opposite of what had happened in the past. I'd explain, but it's a story for another day, for sure. It'll go into a book I'm certain. Also, I'm not sure anyone would believe me, ha.
But I do wish to say that it's damn hard to alter oneself from the inside out, especially when it's a fierce, old pattern that dominates one's life for 50 years. I've done this in smaller ways over time, of course, but this time, it's been a huge change.
And it's rewarding too. So, if you're in the midst of feeling something intense...hang in there, because it just might be an opportunity to "rewrite your past," so to speak. Change/grow or die, literally.
Tough stuff! And the process to get here = messy as all hell. I see why I've stayed in certain patterns, because to change/grow in some areas...well, it requires feeling some awful shit! But no matter how wild, uncomfortable, and fierce, the feelings have never killed me and eventually, the feelings pass. And when they do, and when I feel a clear, quiet space in my mind, I can hear God leading me.
Right now, I hear some glorious thunder. Thunderbird in the sky. :) Good morning.
Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell
So, there I was. But...
After a few weeks of feeling the horrendous feelings, moving forward, and experiencing my past reactions, I was able to keep going, muddle through it all and then, I took different actions, and the result was this: it turned out in a way that was the opposite of what had happened in the past. I'd explain, but it's a story for another day, for sure. It'll go into a book I'm certain. Also, I'm not sure anyone would believe me, ha.
But I do wish to say that it's damn hard to alter oneself from the inside out, especially when it's a fierce, old pattern that dominates one's life for 50 years. I've done this in smaller ways over time, of course, but this time, it's been a huge change.
And it's rewarding too. So, if you're in the midst of feeling something intense...hang in there, because it just might be an opportunity to "rewrite your past," so to speak. Change/grow or die, literally.
Tough stuff! And the process to get here = messy as all hell. I see why I've stayed in certain patterns, because to change/grow in some areas...well, it requires feeling some awful shit! But no matter how wild, uncomfortable, and fierce, the feelings have never killed me and eventually, the feelings pass. And when they do, and when I feel a clear, quiet space in my mind, I can hear God leading me.
Right now, I hear some glorious thunder. Thunderbird in the sky. :) Good morning.
Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell
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