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2/23/2026

Redirection. Turn it around.

Good evening. What is it you are holding on to that keeps you separate from folks? Distant? Unable to love and be loved?

I'm asking myself that question just now. Those are big questions, I realize this.

So, what keeps me separate? Today, what strikes me is this:  obsession and fear, for sure. When I get overly focused and wrapped up in fear, it makes me self-obsessed, and I give off a vibe that scares people, no doubt; however, I will say that obsession can be used for good as well...for instance, when writing!

So, when I channel it correctly, I can use it as a positive force. 

And so, the key is to recognize obsession and fear not as a "red flag" per say; but rather, to notice that when I am going there, it is simply my brain's way of saying this:  either use your gift or get around people.

Redirection, rather than shame. XO.

I've never met anyone who doesn't feel fear. I'm certain that I obsess more than many folks, for sure...but like I said, when channeled correctly, it is a gift. Five books. Ha.

Tricky, indeed. But here I am, writing to you, using this gift. And maybe, just by putting this out there, I can help you as well.

Today, I worked hard, and I made a good haul for a Monday. But what was the sweetest part of my day? When I held the hand of an elderly lady and helped her walk across the parking lot, one step at a time. She had just gotten out of the hospital, and as we walked, she said, "It's a bitch getting old." I smiled and nodded, and we continued on our way. Before that moment, I was rather caught up in feeling my physical pain. But while I held her hand, I forgot about it.

Redirection is key. Help someone, whether it be in a parking lot or typing to you.

This winter has been extreme for these parts. I have had many challenges, beyond the weather. And I'm sure you have as well. If you're afraid right now, maybe your body is telling you to use your gifts. Like me.

I've been forgetting something very important. We are divine. At any moment, I can turn it around. And so can you.

Slow it down. Redirection. Turn it around. I'm in.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

2/08/2026

Hi There. Self.



Good morning. I found a couple of hats at the dollar store. Good hats are hard to find, and I was happy, ha. Literally, I became excited. I am easily amused. I have suddenly developed a liking for orange. It's strange; it just happened. Today, I'm taking a rare day off, and I plan to celebrate orange, wearing this hat again. Ha. What the hell, why not. A day celebrating orange. My secret holiday. 

Actually, I can't stand holidays. But it is fun when I decide to make the day my own, secret holiday. Feels kind of magical and special. Singing and playing piano makes me feel that way as well. I plan to take a walk today, and I will imagine that I am an orange superhero with a skill for consuming magic.

Life is short. Why not live inside the dream. Truth be told, I worry a lot...that's putting it mildly...and the distraction of imagination is helpful.

Anyway, just saying hello. This photo was taken last night. Sending love and light to you. XO.

Thank you for supporting my art! Hope you get a chance to check out my books. Here is my author page. You know, from time to time, folks approach me about my characters in the fiction works. And other times, people comment on my nonfiction one, RECOVER WILDLY:  DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS. I must say, it's often strange and surreal when it happens. But it's fun too. They talk about my characters as if they're friends...and indeed, the characters live inside of me as friends. Oftentimes, they'll pop into my head, as if they're real people from my past. :) Rad. Often, they visit me. 

Yes, I frequently exist outside of the real world, ha. But you know what? It makes life more intense, sacred, and unique to me. 

Also, I hope you get a chance to check out my talk at the Northern Hills Unitarian. More to come. This is a little dream of mine, to speak and travel. And so, it begins. 

I have a sixth book started, a love story I think, although my mind has been veering toward scary stuff too and so, I'm letting it roll. Usually, I surprise myself.

Hope you are well and happy.

Don't forget to join me in my writing world. I think you'll be surprised. I think you'll be hooked. Indeed.

Thank you. I hope you stop and think about how beautiful you are. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

2/03/2026

Northern Hills Gathering, Unitarian. My First Talk for Recover Wildly.

Good afternoon, I just came back from a snow walk. <3

If you'd like to see my first talk about my fifth book, RECOVER WILDLY, and if you'd like to hear some of my story, check out this link for the video of the service from this past Sunday

Yeah!

I wasn't going to watch it because frankly, it's hard to watch oneself, and that day I happened to be very stressed about outside stuff and so, it was challenging. But I also wanted to see how it came across, etc. So, I did. And guess what? I watched it, and I was proud. And I was pleased, and I have ideas too. I hope to make some other speaking engagements soon. :) XO.

Thank you so much for your support. Spread the word. Pass it on. Word of mouth is my friend. Or share the video if you like. Maybe it'll help some folks. Rad.

I need a nap! 
<3
Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell