I Go Somewhere

You know what I crave? Porch swings, small lakes, beach swings, tiny homes with stone paths leading to the door, the moment in certain films, the instant that exists right before the last word is spoken, or the second, the breath that occurs right before the last image appears, one willow tree branch drifting with the wind, reaching to touch another, the space of time that lingers as the air, the breath of God, moves leaves. Fire. Love. Music. Touch. Peace. Safety. A blanket and a teddy bear. Time that has no time at all...to simply...be. Play. Play. Play. I'm winking just now. A fucking mosh pit. I'm too old, but I'd sure try anyhow, ha. Riding in some car, cracking up, the music blaring, with no direction in mind. Naked hiking. Actually, I intend to do that soon. Nudist joints appeal to me from time to time. Yes, indeed.

And don't you believe that the trees hear us? I'm not certain people truly hear me, but I know that the trees do. They seem so kind, so gentle. People can be fierce and unpredictable. Although, sometimes loving and unique, of course. But I feel that only the trees hear my true voice. Today, I talked to them. Of course, throughout my days, I speak to folks anyhow. Just for kicks, I guess. Many days, I still feel invisible. 

But I speak anyway. Just because that's what people do. When I'm moving, when I'm working, I'm actually quite light and carefree at times. I am oftentimes hilarious. Strange to think about how I was joking around just a few hours ago. 

How different I can be from one hour to the next.

Truth be told, when I am alone, writing, or when I'm singing songs, when I'm in this space, I'm still the same person that I was when I was nine years old.

I go somewhere.

Hello, I'm glad you're here. Nice to see you going somewhere with me. Have a nice evening, kiddo. We are secret children.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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Rest

 

Rest, C.A. MacConnell C. 2025

I took this today, actually. It was originally a small piece of a trash bag. I made it into something interesting. Hope you like it. Just messing around. Have a beautiful evening. I'm going to take some photos tonight. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell.

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The Net

Just writing some flash poetry just now...thought I'd share it.

The Net

I gripped the dogwood tree,
peeling back pieces of bark.
Waiting for ginger cookies,
I wore my jumpsuit -- plaid --
while Grampie picked blueberries
and skinned fish for supper.
My friends, the bloodsuckers. 
The net hung in the shed,
waiting for all of us.
Here.

C.A. MacConnell

The Air That Surrounds You

The Air That Surrounds You

There you are, in the crowd,
wearing a red T-shirt. In a mess

of cross-style sitting strangers,
you are the only one standing tall,

your long arms hanging loose,
your hands making slight fists.

Around you, a foot of yellow,
glowing space graces each side

of your form. And this is the air
that always surrounds your shape.

You are smiling wide, your dark hair
barely reaching your shoulders.

Freshly shaven, your pale cheeks
spotlight-shine. And you are looking

up. This time, you move. This time,
you hold up your hand, furiously

waving. But even then, you forget
to blink. And from the stage, struck

by the stare, in the middle of two
difficult words, I stop speaking.

Like always, my breath turns
guttural, a seemingly solid pant,

a trapped, warm, familiar ache,
a sky-stuck moon sliver of light

caught in a crevice
deep inside my left

breast.

C.A. MacConnell

Good morning. I just felt like posting something sweet and loving today. I've been learning a lot about myself...for sure. As I've written, Everything and everyone around me are a reflection of who I am. Learning my own lesson, so to speak, ha.

Sometimes, with writing, it works that way.

I suppose there's a balance. Sure, I want to change and grow. But I also want to celebrate the essence of who I am. Because who we are is unique and awesome! And so, I don't have to constantly strive to be someone else or "be better." Rather, life presents me with situations, and I can choose my perspective; I can choose to learn or whatnot. Or do nothing. And it is tricky to navigate the balance sometimes. 

I hope you and I can celebrate the awesomeness that makes up who we are today. Right here, right now. I suppose, above all, I just want to feel safe and loved, like everyone else. We all just have different ways of seeking it. <3

I'm fifty-one now, ha. Sometimes, I look in the mirror, and I'm surprised, because on the inside I still feel like a fourteen-year-old quite often, which isn't always necessarily a bad thing. Also, I'm learning how to develop more friendships, which is cool. And I'm learning how to continue friendships and such. I fly single, and I have since 2013, which is a long time. I haven't seen my match. If I did, my heart would know. <3 I look at others and wonder sometimes, but I don't obsess. I just continue to write and move forward. Sometimes, I wonder about my place in this spider web, but I'm better when I'm moving and staying in the moment.

Life isn't wrapped in a neat little box, for sure, ha. I mess up, I regroup, I try again. For an introvert and artist like me, navigating relationships is tricky. I suppose it's tricky for all. :) I'm not unique here. But, as I heard someone say last night, as the old cliche goes, "Just try to do the next right thing." Slow it down. Keep it simple.

But I do know that I can try and be authentic and help some folks today.  Because...if one wants to feel loved, one has to give love. I find myself getting lost in seeking positivity and reassurance from the outside, but it's inside. I sort of remember and forget, remember and forget. 

So, give. That's the focus today. Also, breathe, relax. Slow it down. Float through the day. "Fight or flight" is not working for my body at all. Stress can do a number on one physically.

And a wise writer once said, "I think I'll do what I can and have a cookie." That was me. I wrote that. Ha.

And at the moment, it just feels good to write.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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Thank you!

 
Afternoon, C.A. MacConnell C. 2025

Thank you to everyone who came out for my book signing! It was awesome. I saw a lot of family and friends...and met some new folks too. I'm taking the day off, and I'm not sure what to do with myself, as this has been a fiery journey the past three years. I suppose most people know how to rest and relax. I'm learning, ha. I'm sure I will take a long walk. I can't wait. That's all I know so far. :) And later, I intend to play some piano! I've been loving it so much. Writing songs and creating. <3 I feel a poem churning inside of me as well. :) Honestly, I always have poems and stories and songs churning inside of me, ha. I'll start posting on here more soon. :) A long walk with nature...and I hope it rains. XO.

Hope you have an amazing day. Thank you. Please leave a review! And pass on the word. Your support means so much. <3 to you, C.A. MacConnell

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Private Drive, Eight Days Away!

 

Private Drive, C.A. MacConnell C. 2025

Hi there! Hope you like the photo. It's one of my favorites. :) 

My book signing is just eight days away! Hope to see you there. 

If you can't make it, you can find my books here.

I'm also looking forward to getting my next book together. It's already rolling around in my tricky brain. Ha. It'll be fiction. I can't wait, honestly. I'm already excited about it. It'll have a lot of action and strong, amusing male characters. That's all I'll say for now.

I've been writing songs on piano, and they're rad. So much fun to sing and create just for the joy of it. I plan on getting a portable instrument, ha, so that I can share this stuff but for now, I love the secret time I spend writing on the real thing -- pianos in churches...sometimes, I get in trouble, yes. I suppose it's sacred and exciting to me, and I enjoy the feel of the freedom.

And, I've been trying to get the word out about my books, as well as doing deliveries. About three jobs right now, ha. But I do enjoy all of it...although my body doesn't always agree. And, I'd rather be working on my next book! Soon. I'm trying to slow down throughout my days...relax and take it easier. That's my main goal right here, right now. I'm learning balance and moderation, which I abhor. Ha! "All or nothing" is my go-to. But life is teaching me many lessons...so fast I can barely keep up! Trying to take care of my body, but also not obsess about pain...it's challenging mentally, but it's also teaching me how to pay attention to the way I talk to myself.

I'd like to love myself today so that I can show love to you. And better show compassion to those all around. XO.

Love to you. Hope you have an amazing day.

C.A. MacConnell

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Secret Time

Good morning. I captured this little gem last evening. Hope you have a great day. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

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Howdy. Book Signing.

 

Hope to see you there.

C.A. MacConnell

Me, Right now.

I took the first selfie in a while, ha. Here I am right now. I kinda like it. It feels like "me." Kinda captures my "feels" today. Hope you have an amazing evening. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

 

Save the Date! Book Signing Saturday, August 23. Details Soon.

 

Good morning. I am having a book signing for RECOVER WILDLY:  DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS on Saturday, August 23. Details soon! Save the date.

I also have four killer novels out! They're all fast-paced, mysterious, and unique. I guarantee you'll never forget the ride.

Touch/Click on any of the book covers for info and to purchase.

Thank you. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

Hope you have an amazing day. XO.

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