- C.A. MacConnell -

8/08/2025

Secret Time

Good morning. I captured this little gem last evening. Hope you have a great day. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

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8/04/2025

Howdy. Book Signing.

Hope to see you there.

C.A. MacConnell

8/02/2025

Me, Right now.

I took the first selfie in a while, ha. Here I am right now. I kinda like it. It feels like "me." Kinda captures my "feels" today. Hope you have an amazing evening. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

Save the Date! Book Signing Saturday, August 23. Details Soon.

Good morning. I am having a book signing for RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS on Saturday, August 23. Details soon! Save the date.

I also have four killer novels out! They're all fast-paced, mysterious, and unique. I guarantee you'll never forget the ride.

Touch/Click on any of the book covers for info and to purchase.

Thank you. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

Hope you have an amazing day. XO.

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7/31/2025

Fall to Touch, 1 through 6.

Good morning. Just sharing my "Fall to Touch" photos, one through six. Just happened across them today. I love the beauty in the simple stuff. XO. Hope you have an amazing day. I got some good rest, and I'm grateful. Remember -- one moment at a time, right here, right now. Telling myself as well. Interesting, all of my morning readings were reminders of this too. I can get overwhelmed, and I turn into a strange, harsh being, and I become too hard on myself when I focus on the big picture. It's more comforting when I break things down into smaller pieces. "Dial it down," is what one of my spiritual advisers once said. I love that. See, I don't need any outside pressure. I'm already a trooper. What I need is gentleness, kindness, and positive self-talk, not harshness. And if I'm kind to myself, I'm kinder to others in turn. XO.

Love that child within you. Love. Comfort, safety, and love. <3 And then, it radiates outward. I suppose that's what my fifth book is all about, in a nutshell. Loving that person within...so that I can spread this to someone else, hopefully. Maybe help someone. Maybe be a part of the flow of goodness. XO. Maybe add love and beauty to someone's day. Maybe touch a soul. :)

Nature is circular.

We're here for a short time. We deserve peace and happiness, all of the good things, however that manifests itself. XO.

Thank you for supporting my five books!

Love to you,

C.A. MacConnell

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7/30/2025

Milk Carton

Good morning. I have a couple of books' worth of poems, ha. Maybe that'll be my next book. Not sure yet. :)XO. I have my heart set on working on another novel I've started, though. I have a beginning, and it's been churning around in my brain in various ways. It always starts that way...then it doesn't leave me alone until I finish it, ha. Annoying as all hell. But also, fun.

I'm grateful for my ridiculous brain.

What have I been doing? Writing songs on piano continuously. Struggling with aging and such, in many ways, but also, going forward. Pushing through tough stuff to do so. Becoming my own hero, so to speak. Grieving some things, which has been surprising and tumultuous. Also, feeling the grief easing up...and yesterday, I felt a nice sense of calm roll in.

Thank you for supporting my fifth book. I went to see "Superman," but I didn't make it much further past the previews, for various reasons, and I wasn't into the sucker at all. I did love "F1" though. I love car movies. Especially, "Drive," one of my favorites of all time. Yes. <3

Hope you like my poem. Have an awesome day. Whatever you're going through right now, I hope you have an amazing journey. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

Milk Carton

Proof of life:
Tangled hair, twisted throw.
The animal and I,
We wake.

Strange captor calls from the
Family.

Now, stretching. True, I'm no brow-beauty.
Some other missing girl will
Bring the ransom
Home.
She'll be a longer living wall fly.
Some say she'll stick.

Ground coffee, look here, I make the black
Law. I admit, it's a little

Strong.

Call the shepherds. They know
Blood.
Find the sign,
The lost shoe,
The search team, the one
Phone call,
The right or wrong
Words. Relatives know how to make a
Deal. Someone finds a bad sock,

A trace.

Hero, empty or full, don't forget the suit
case.

C.A. MacConnell

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7/22/2025

Sparks

C.A. MacConnell C. 2025

Hi! How's it going? Just came across this one, and I love it. Took it this year sometime. I love the ones that suggest, rather than tell. :)XO. Hope you like it too.

Spread the word! Let's get to number one! Five books out now! Touch/click on any of the book covers on this page, and it'll send you there!

Thanks so much. Don't forget to leave a review! Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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Howdy. Do You Have Your Copies Yet? XO.

Hi there. I've had a challenging week! Here I was with my buddy yesterday. Just sharing something from my life. <3

Do you have your copies of my books yet? Click on any of the covers below, and it'll send you to a description and purchase info. Or, go here.

I'm excited about how folks are responding to my 2025 creation, RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS. Mostly, I'm thrilled that it's helping some people. My first nonfiction book...and it's been quite a journey getting it out there. We've been so close to number one in Inner Child Self Help on Amazon, and we've been creeping down closer to number one on the general charts with all of my books. Rad. Thank you so much to all who are supporting my art. Here is my author page. More to come!

Again, click/touch any of the covers below! Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

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7/20/2025

Adventure and Connection

It's the end of my work week, and I'm sitting here like a grade school girl, wishing that love was like the movies. Growing up, I guess books and movies were the examples of love that I came to know. Also, my imagination. For instance, I used to dream that I was part of the cast of Dances with Wolves. Or Goonies. I wanted the adventure, and the intense connections. I still do. I long for it constantly, at least when I have down time. I create it in my songs and books, I suppose. The feeling I longed for...it had nothing to do with appearances.

Rather, it was all about adventure and connection. Still is. Deep connection. Yes.

And yesterday, I was in the sanctuary wishing to God that one of my dreams would be real, in real life, in real time. I suppose I've been disappointed by movies, books, and my imagination, because some of it becomes quite real to me, at least when we're talking about emotions.

Is that part of being an artist? Creating that loneliness on purpose? I'm wondering. A lot of great artists struggle with loneliness, depression, and the like. Even when I'm writing comedy it happens. Artists have all sorts of dilemmas on the side, but humans in general struggle with all of these things. So, I won't assume that any of it is special and simply reserved for artists. No. I think that notion is a cliche.

Perhaps I'm touching on a hole that everyone can relate to. Some say, fill it with God. Or focus on loving the self. Or help others. I haven't mastered these notions...I still look to outside things some days. Or, I stay alone and keep writing, things of that nature. I channel it into art, which keeps me alive, honestly. I do help a lot of folks...and that feels right to my heart. Yes.

But I don't know the answer to this separateness we all seem to experience, and I don't know why it exists.

Seems like the world should be gentler and less complicated.

But why can't one dream be real? Perhaps it is. It's all quite confusing to me right now, to put it mildly. After finishing my fifth book, I've been uncomfortable. Uncomfortable. Because I'm definitely changing, and it's uncomfortable. So, here I am. Fifty. Getting older by the day. Feeling older too. Looking in the mirror and feeling quite a bit of loss. And for a while I became trapped in the idea of wanting to fix everything, to keep up with all those Internet girls, stars, or young girls, or whatever. But just the thought of it is exhausting and sad to me. Going down that road doesn't make me happy. It's just not right to my heart.

But I'm real.

Does that matter to anyone?

I don't know.

Yes, it matters to my friends. And oftentimes, people approach me and tell me they appreciate my openness. So, there's that. But it scares folks too.

I'm definitely not anyone's trophy wife. I'm stubborn and strong as fuck some days. Other days I cry and want a cookie. Still other days you'll find me randomly dancing about my workday, cracking jokes like mad. I'm wild, unpredictable, and free, and that scares people too.

There is a fire inside of me that only singing touches. There is a fire inside of me for a completely different life, and I feel like I've fucked up. How I wish I could go back. I have a lot of regrets.

I remember hearing a story about Frida, how she and her lover lived in separate apartments that were connected by a walkway above ground. I understood that, but that's not for me either. I want to be with my wolf. I've had partners before, sure, over time, but it's been twelve years now. Twelve years, yeah. In that time, I've done a ton of therapy, written four books, built a lot of strength, and created a ton of photography, songs, and other things. But last night, when I was enjoying creating a new song in the sanctuary, I asked God for the dream to be real.

Adventure and connection. Music. Yes. I'm not seeking. Instead, I'm experiencing these feelings and listening to the storm rolling in. And for what it's worth, I feel the fire inside of me right now, writing to you.

Again, it has nothing to do with surface or appearances. It has to do with a soul connection. Indeed. For me, that fills the hole. And now, here we are, and I am smiling again.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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7/19/2025

Burn

Howdy! I took this yesterday when I was out walking after work. Kinda dark, but fiery and sexy somehow too. I liked it. Hope you have a great evening. I'm trying to chill after a challenging week, for sure. Love to you, C.A. MacConnell

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7/14/2025

The Wild

Imagination. Yesterday, I made a list of the times in my life when I felt happiest. Dancing in the desert, skinny dipping, nude hikes, relaxing in a field, watching horses graze, things of that nature. Some of them had to do with partners or friends, people who brought out the wild in me, mostly. Other moments were simply lone times when I tapped into it myself.

But these are the times when I've been at my best. And I think that's where the heart of my new book comes from as well -- longing for that wildness and also, longing to share that with someone as well. Of course, I can tap into it on my own, and I have for many years. I feel it when I get deep into writing fiction or poetry. I also feel it when I'm singing, on certain walks, or when I take photos. Concerts can put me there too. Not all, but some. I especially miss the nineties concerts and the mosh pits...those were the epitome of the feral feel that I adore. And still other days, I can reach that place just by dreaming or becoming lost in my imagination.

Ah, the wild. Yes. Ever since I was a little girl, I've longed for that freedom. I still do. There's a part of me that feels a little different than many around me. Maybe that's my creative nature or free spirit, I'm not sure. Or maybe we all long for it; some of us just express it more than others. That may be the truth. I'm not sure.

I suppose I spend many days wishing I were a tree or a hawk. To me, things make more sense in that realm.

When I look at my list, and I remember all of these moments, and I ask myself which one strikes me as the one that stands out, it's this: I was driving cross country with a friend, and we happened upon a Native American gathering in the Nevada desert, and all night long, we danced around the fire. It was magnificent. I was right in the moment, and I wasn't worried about a goddamn thing. Later, we froze our asses off when the temperature dropped, ha, and we had to use our body heat to stay warm and so, we hugged each other. We weren't partners. We did it to survive, and it was innocent and unique. I'll never forget that evening. The vision of it fills my heart with warmth.

The wild is inside...but a desert fire helps. XO. And so does music, and the like. And so do leaders...other creative souls who pave the way there. Sometimes, we need someone to give us permission to play, to be free...until we can do it ourselves. When I get too serious, these leaders can point me back to the child inside that I love.

After all, when someone is near, and he sparks me with passion, it is a reflection of my desires. And so, it unfolds. We can help each other, if we're aware. We can help each other with the spark. We can help each other return there, if need be.

I'm not sure what's next for me, but I intend to read a bunch, and I have a book of fiction started...so that's on my mind. :) I've been enjoying writing songs on piano and singing in churches, and I have a whole album written now. Pretty rad. It's funny. I just play to God, and I don't really think too much about having an audience. I wouldn't mind necessarily, but I'm just having fun creating.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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7/01/2025

Wes' Museum

Good afternoon. Not sure why I picked this photo today...probably because it makes me chuckle. It reminds me of something that'd be in the background of a Wes Anderson film -- hence, the title. Sort of like a secret, hidden joke that's not hidden at all, which is why it's so funny. Anyway, I'm weird.

Hope you're doing well! Thank you to all those who are supporting my new book, RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS. Do you have your copy yet? XO.

All five of my books are spectacular; the first four are fiction, and the fifth is nonfiction. You can find them all on my author page. Every single one is fast-paced and gripping. Let's get to number ONE! We've been awfully close.

I wrote the suckers. Now, all I need is you! <3 I've been spending some time with the woolly mammoths (well, where they used to roam anyhow, ha) and reading a ton of books, mostly Richard Bach and Melody Beattie, that kind of thing. I'll switch it up here soon. I'm in the mood for some Steinbeck. Perhaps some young adult too. And some Wally Lamb. I dig pretty much everything. I like crime as well, but my favorite is Chester Himes, because he's way outside the box.

Harry, the black snake, is living in the attic I think, which is fine by me...b/c he's an elusive roomie. I'm actually not afraid, oddly. All I need is a shark in my bathtub, and I'll be set.

Hope you're having an awesome day. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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6/24/2025

Yellow Field

Good afternoon. Just getting my brain in gear. Here's some flash poetry for you. I'm sure I'll edit it, but it's kinda fun to just create and share right now. :) I come back to poetry to get in a zone...it puts me right in the moment. Love to you. C.A. MacConnell

Yellow Field

I bury myself
in the scorched, yellow field.
Beside me, my weapon --
a sharp, wooden sword
carefully carved
by my own hand.
Butterflies circle
my weak, bony wrist,
easily measured
by anyone's circle of touch.
You know, pointer to thumb.
Horses -- there are two --
and the gray, right side
of the farmer's house
is vertically splintered
like ancient train tracks
heading to heaven.
Only the shutters are solid.
Shade turns
all windows gray.
Resting there,
I see you, Stand by Me.
I feel the horrible quiet.
I hear the sudden whistle,
and along with the boys,
I am running
for my life,
lost in a surprise
game of chicken.
I know the scene.
I know the speed.
We are one.

We are the same.
Jesus Christ,
I can smell the dead man.
Eternally, I am trapped
inside a thin, striped T-shirt,
racing River
in the openness,
tripping on the ties, forever
eleven. Yes, I am in love
with spiders.

C.A. MacConnell

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6/19/2025

Photo: Here, and a Note to You

"Here," by C.A. MacConnell

Good morning. It's 4:33 a.m. to be exact. Last night, I fell asleep at like 7 p.m. Much needed. I suppose I've been going through many changes and emotions since releasing the book! Interesting. Also, I'm having some quick and steady realizations about old and new thinking, how I talk to myself, and that kind of thing. Rapid fire learning, for sure.

Releasing nonfiction is quite different from releasing fiction. Both put a writer in a vulnerable spot, but nonfiction can touch that spot even more, for sure. Feels like a tornado that's been rolling inside of me...but it's slowly settling down. Interesting as all hell to walk through it...

Whatever you're going through, be patient and be kind with yourself! <3 This morning, I'm feeling much more centered.

But all of my art comes from my mind and heart...and it's worth it. I'm always hoping to touch, entertain, help, and connect with folks. That's what it's all about.

Thank you to everyone supporting my books! I'm excited by the response, and I'm looking forward to seeing what rolls out next. One thing I'm planning is a book signing, but it may take some time, as I'm going to do this one a little differently. I'm excited about it though. It may have something to do with music and clowns, I'm hoping. :)

Hope you have an amazing day. Sami, my car, and I are out to do deliveries and then, they get a tune-up, ha. Perhaps I need a tune-up as well. My mom says I need a tune-up in the wardrobe area, ha, which is probably true, but I do hate shopping, ha, so I will probably continue to wear my sweats and t-shirts from the 90s.

Again, thank you for supporting my art. All of my books are here. Or, you can just click on the covers on the right side of this page. Hopefully, I'm helping some folks. From the feedback so far, that is the case! Awesome.

If you're reading, please leave a review! Some people have already done so, and I thank you.

Expect magic. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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6/09/2025

Hello. Forward. :)

Good evening! It's fun pasting my book covers here. Proud of this hard work, over 30 years of it! Click/Touch any of the covers, and it'll send you straight to the purchase info. Or you can find them all on my Author Page right here.

I recently read "Radical Forgiveness," by Colin Tipping; it was fantastic. I highly recommend it. The process of reading and following the suggestions was difficult to feel, but I'm seeing some newness and some light creeping in, for sure. I enjoy trying new things. Certainly, I suggest that book to anyone! It's eye-opening. Now I'm re-reading "The Secret." That's good as well. I'm always chiseling away at something new. Why not.

I'm also writing a ton of songs, which is fun. The more I go along, the better they get. Long story, but b/c of stress and such, my muscles/nerves/chronic pain has been intense and so, because of the muscle issue, the singing is now at about 75-85% I'd say. Getting there. Some days, I'm at 100, and that's fun as hell. Literally "getting my voice back." It's been a long, slow recovery process, and it's still going on, but I'm hopeful this evening. Soon, I'll be a powerhouse. :) Yeah. You got it.

It's amazing what stress and repressed emotion can do to the body. I've been walking right through it all, and part of the process included writing that fifth book, and I'd say I look rather rough right now, ha, but I'm OK with it. It's been a very tough couple of years, and I'm super proud of my continued perseverance.

Thank you to all of you supporting RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS, my fifth book. I intend to have a signing, and to be trite, I have some other things "up my sleeves." Rad.

Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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6/04/2025

Thank you, and a Flash Poem: Rattle

If you haven't checked out my fifth book, please do so. It is awesome. Nonfiction. RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS. I've been so close to number one in Inner Child Self Help! So close! Help me get there! I'm thrilled with the response. This book will touch your heart for sure. I also have four published novels, all of which are amazing, I might add.

All of my books are solely created, written, edited, and designed by me. Everything, me. I'm proud of over 30 years of hard work. XO.

Again, Author Page right here.

So, here's some flash poetry for ya...I'm getting back in fiction gear for book six. Poetry brings me back to the moment :)

Rattle

High-pitched, cicadas click
and whine, tymbal-singing
of thirteen underground years.
They seem not afraid that death
will come soon. Three to five
weeks, to be exact. How brief
they rattle this world with life.
Simply, like butterflies, they rejoice
in the flight. Perhaps, of their story's
brevity, they are not aware. Perhaps,
neither are we.

C.A. MacConnell

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5/26/2025

The Response!

Good morning and thank you.

Do you have your copy yet? We're on the way to number one! Help me get there. I'm so excited by the response so far...dreams coming true day by day. And, helping people day by day. Win-win. <3 From my heart to yours...

Hope you have an amazing day.

C.A. MacConnell

5/24/2025

Only 42 Away from Number ONE!

I can hardly believe it. I woke up and checked...and realized that my book is at NUMBER 43 in Self Help Inner Child on Amazon. That means, I'm only 42 away from NUMBER ONE!

HELP ME GET THERE!

We're so close. Thank you!

"Dream like a fire tearing through kindling." C.A. MacConnell, RECOVER WILDLY
C.A. MacConnell

5/23/2025

Thank you. Good morning. Recover Wildly.

Good morning! Thank you.

Wow, there have been a lot of emotions, ha, that's putting it mildly, with publishing this sucker, RECOVER WILDLY. With nonfiction, the experience is quite different. I'm so happy and proud as well. It's a mix of random feelings, but it's unique to me, and it's quite interesting to feel it unfold. I've had a lot of tossing and turning at night. Last night, I finally chilled and rested. Yay.

And this morning, I'm feeling light and mischievous. ;) I feel a little spark. 💓I prayed and that's what rolled in. Ready to have some fun and laugh today. I'll try my best to stay out of trouble, ha. Or "stay in it," as the skaters in my second book, THE HOUSE OF ANCHOR, would say. Haha. I love those guys. Literally, my characters are real to me, just saying. I adore that book. What an adventure that one is, for sure.

I'm so thankful to those who are purchasing my fifth book! Do you have your copy yet? It's right here. It's daring, raw, real, and also humorous at times. It's so rad, and I'm so happy to share it with you. I'm hoping it'll help some folks. I'm amazed at the response already.

I'll be planning a signing as soon as things settle a bit. Not sure where yet, but I have some ideas. :)

Here is my author page.

Five books! What a journey.
I wonder what's going to happen today! <3 to you,

C.A. MacConnell

5/21/2025

Recover Wildly

Good morning. I am happy to announce that my fifth book, RECOVER WILDLY: DAILY SPIRITUAL ESSAYS FOR SURVIVORS, is available right here.
It is a heartfelt journey of nonfiction, from me to you. We are all survivors. We are all in recovery from something. And this book touches that secret place.

I created, wrote, edited, and designed this. No AI was used in the creation of this work. I am so proud of the many years of hard work that have gone into this, and I know you will love it! Raw and daring, sometimes humorous, and other times deep, this book will take you on a journey you'll never forget.

Pass it on. Here we go. Love to you,
C.A. MacConnell

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